Negative

I’ve stopped sobbing long enough to post this.  There will be more sobbing to come, I’m sure.  My clinic wants me to stay on my medications and re-test on Monday to confirm the negative.  Which just feels like a particularly cruel brand of torture to me, but I guess I have to do it.  And then we’ll figure out what to do next.

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46 thoughts on “Negative

  1. No!!!!!!! Oh Daryl, I’m crying with you. I’m so very sorry and I wish with my whole heart I could take this away from you. Do what is necessary to make it through this time. And know that you are being wrapped in love.

  2. Oh sweetie, I’m so very sorry. You’ve been in my thoughts since your transfer. I wish I had the magic ability to fix this, to help, to take the tears away. I know that there are no words to change this, to fix this, but know that we are here, all of us, sobbing with you. Know that if we could put our arms around you, they would be there in a heartbeat.

  3. So, so, sorry. I just got a negative earlier this week and there was no shortage of tears. I couldn’t agree more that the indignity of a second pregnancy test is frankly criminal. Take care.

  4. Oh, I’m so mad right now. I checked back in, just before bed, just so certain it would be good news. Stinking infertility. I hate it so much. My heart aches for you. Let yourself cry as much as you need to. The only thing that made me feel better was about 20 episodes in a row of Arrested Development, and that was only a minor relief.

  5. Oh, Daryl, I am just so heartbroken for you. Shattered and devastated. I am so sorry. Wishing you strength and peace over what I know will be such a sad and hard weekend. Hugs. XO

  6. Oh NO, this is so unfair. You’ve been on my mind all last night and this morning, and I’m crying angry tears right along with you my dear. I know that there aren’t any words that can make it easier right now, but please know that I am here, we all are, thinking of you and sending so many warm thoughts. Just so sorry. Take as much time as you need to grieve. Sending a big hug.

  7. I am so so sorry. I had been really hoping you would see a BFP after all you’ve been through. I’m sorry you have the additional torture of having to test again on Monday.

  8. Dear Daryl,

    I’m sorry to hear your news. My wonderful, amazing dh has the same condition. There is absolutely nothing fair about infertility. Big hug to the two of you, and take comfort in the love you have for one another. Don’t lose sight of that in the midst of your grief.

  9. I am so deeply sorry. I know how it feels 😦 I haven’t been blogging my journey anymore because it just hurts too much, but I’ve been following yours. And I was really rooting for that positive.

  10. Very, very sorry to hear the news. Whatever you’re feeling right now is okay. Go with it. Be kind to yourself. It doesn’t make it any better, but so many of us have been right there in your shoes and survived to tell the story. One day, the results will be radically different, and the tears you shed now will make your joy that much sweeter. I promise. Lots and lots of love to you, sweetheart.

  11. I am so sorry. I wish I could say something to bring you comfort, but I know there are no words. You are in my prayers

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