I have a long, detailed post in my drafts about the breastfeeding saga so far. I’ve briefly alluded to the fact that we’ve been having problems getting this whole feeding thing down, but that doesn’t do justice to how ridiculously hard it’s been.
I know parenting is hard, but it’s not supposed to be this hard. It’s not supposed to leave you in physical pain, with injuries that take weeks to heal. With nipples rubbed so raw they’re scabbed and bleeding. It’s not supposed to make you wish your baby would sleep a little longer just to avoid another feeding.
Baby girl had a tongue tie. We were pretty sure that’s what was causing the pain and injuries to my breasts, but she had it clipped over a week ago, and it doesn’t seem to have made a difference. The pain is getting worse. Leaving me in tears at 3 in the morning while baby girl screams with hunger.
I don’t know what we’re doing wrong. Even when I think we have a good latch, there’s still pain, and my nipples end up pinched. The lactation consultant has suggested that perhaps baby girl’s mouth is too small for my apparently enormous nipples. What are we supposed to do about that?
It’s frustrating for both of us. And it makes me feel like a failure.
We go back to the lactation consultant on Thursday. And in the meantime, I’m back to pumping (which still hurts my nipples–they hurt right now, just sitting here). But today is a particularly hard day, and I just needed to get this out there.
Please tell me I’m not alone. Please tell me there’s a way through this.