For as long as I can remember, I have loved books. Words and illustrations. The weight and smell and feel of a book in my hands. The worlds that exist between the pages. I was a good reader from a young age (though not fast, no faster than the voice of the narrator in my […]


“Give Aba kisses.”  Baby girl leans in, mouth open, and licks Hubby’s cheek. “Aw, kisses.” He lifts her away from him and pulls her close again, kissing her cheeks, her nose, her hair. “Neshikot, neshikot,” he says. Then, to me, “Do you think it’s possible to kiss her too much?” *** “Kisses! Kisses! Smooch and […]

Photos and Memories

It’s been two weeks since my last blog post.  I could say I haven’t had the time or inclination to write, but that’s a lie.  To say I haven’t had the energy, physical or mental, would be closer to the truth.  I constantly write blog posts in my head that never make it to the […]

“How was your Mama’s Day?”

A grandparent asked me this at a home visit yesterday.  I quickly mulled over possible responses (Well, my mom’s dead, and despite thousands of dollars and the most invasive reproductive technology available, I can’t have a baby…so, yeah, it was awesome) before responding with a lame, “It was fine,” and quickly changing the subject to […]

Awkward Conversations and Loving-Kindness

I’ve been thinking a lot about my reaction to D’s pregnancy news and how I might respond to her if/when she ever called me as she promised she would.  One weekend passed.  Then another.  And another. Today, one month after our last conversation, she called.  I answered before I even realized who was calling.  And […]

Happy Thoughts Thursday: Better at Sad

Being happy doesn’t seem to come naturally to me.  I have to work a lot harder to maintain a positive attitude.  The exact opposite of my husband.  Dr. N actually asked me today if I was upset that Hubby didn’t seem to share my grief.  Uh, no.  He’s allowed to grieve in his own way. […]