Mourning & Moping

Saturday 6:39 pm I haven’t brushed my teeth today.  I’m still in my pajamas.  I refuse to leave the house. I haven’t felt this way since my mom died.  The same raw, always-on-the-verge-of-tears feeling that set in immediately after hearing the news, even though I was half-expecting it, and didn’t leave for days. In the […]

Negative

I’ve stopped sobbing long enough to post this.  There will be more sobbing to come, I’m sure.  My clinic wants me to stay on my medications and re-test on Monday to confirm the negative.  Which just feels like a particularly cruel brand of torture to me, but I guess I have to do it.  And […]

Getting back to normal–whatever that is.

I’m still exhausted.  I still feel like I’m getting sick.  I did nothing all weekend, actually felt fine yesterday, and today I’ve been sneezing, my throat hurts, and I feel generally bleh. But mentally?  Much better. I think Cristy had a point about the hormone crash (see comments).  At least, that’s what I’m telling myself […]

Wallowing

None of this has gone according to plan.  Why should I have expected our first IVF cycle to be any different? Except I did.  Because we were finally getting somewhere.  And now we’re stalled.  Again. It’s been a not-so-great couple of days.  After the disappointment of Thursday, I read this post.  Tami’s been through some […]

Cramps? Bleeding? Please, oh, please?

My husband is super-cute.  I’ve said this before, right?  Last night, when I was clearly tired, getting sick, and upset about this whole possible-ovulation-while-on-the-pill thing, he says, “See?  You so much want to have a baby, even birth control can’t stop you!”  To cheer me up.  (Imagine that with his adorable accent, and you can’t help […]

Bad Blogger

I’ve fallen so far behind on reading blogs and commenting this week.  I just haven’t felt like doing much of anything.  Enjoy these bullet points explaining why: § I’ve been super-stressed this week.  I don’t know if it’s the sore boobs telling me my period–and therefore the start of our first IVF–is imminent, but I’ve […]