Not My Fault

According to Dr. C, nothing about our failed cycle can be chalked up to poor egg quality or ute problems.  He proclaimed that he’s more thorough than most when it comes to checking out the lady bits pre-IVF to ensure he knows what he’s working with.  That the only thing he’d do differently is start […]

Mourning & Moping

Saturday 6:39 pm I haven’t brushed my teeth today.  I’m still in my pajamas.  I refuse to leave the house. I haven’t felt this way since my mom died.  The same raw, always-on-the-verge-of-tears feeling that set in immediately after hearing the news, even though I was half-expecting it, and didn’t leave for days. In the […]

Negative

I’ve stopped sobbing long enough to post this.  There will be more sobbing to come, I’m sure.  My clinic wants me to stay on my medications and re-test on Monday to confirm the negative.  Which just feels like a particularly cruel brand of torture to me, but I guess I have to do it.  And […]

Happy Thoughts Thursday: Finally! Edition

It’s Thursday, although it’s felt like a Saturday all day, and I’ve been doing my best to occupy myself while trying to remain in a (mostly) horizontal position.  Here’s a little catch-up: ∞ There’s no such thing as TMI on in infertility blog, right?  Good, because I finally pooped today!  And without all of your […]

Calm Before the…Something

I wouldn’t call it a storm, exactly, but something is brewing.  Since the end of last week, when I cried, freaked out, vented, and was given some amazing advice from all of you, I’ve been feeling better.  More hopeful.  And even a little bit excited.  Our big day is almost here! And I want to […]