Last night, as I lay down to sleep, I felt the unmistakable twitch-flutter in my belly that, for the first time, I was 100% sure was the Kid and not the result of my ever-slowing digestion. It was an exciting end to an already exciting day. Yesterday morning, at 15 weeks 4 days, I finally […]
“The Kid” 12 weeks 5 days
I was congratulated multiple times today. Which feels weird, so early. I called my GP, the maternity unit at our local hospital, and our fertility clinic. I’m still waiting to hear whether or not we can get an early scan done locally, but it’s not looking likely. The fertility clinic wants us to do the […]
It hasn’t quite sunk in yet. Twenty-four hours ago, I had convinced myself that I wasn’t pregnant. Now I find myself wrestling with the hope, fear, happiness, and disbelief that comes with that second line. As I mentioned before, no betas here, so the plan is to test again tomorrow and the next day, hopefully […]
Today you are one. In a year ruled by numbers–length and weight, milliliters consumed, soiled diaper counts–365 days is the one we celebrate. But you have been my daughter much longer than that. You were one of seven fertilized eggs, created in a lab instead of my body, but made with love as much as […]
A year ago, I was joyfully anticipating the birth of my daughter, even through the craziness and stress of our recent move. I had not yet reached my due date, but my doctor was already talking about induction, citing my “high-risk” pregnancy for no other reason than that it was the result of IVF. Two […]
When we lived in the mountains, I used to marvel at how the angle and quality of light exert their magic on the color and shape of the mountains, making them appear close enough to reach out and touch, or far and flat, as if painted on the horizon. Hubby and I chose a location […]
Tonight we will light the first Hanukkah candle. (Technically, we should have done it when the sun went down, but, meh, we’re not that strict in this house.) And tomorrow, the first full day of Hanukkah falls on Thanksgiving day for the first time in, like, ever. And it won’t happen again for another 76,000 […]
Thumper’s been very active today. With every movement, I fall more in love. Hubby got to feel her a couple of times today, for the first time since Monday. Every other time, he’s just missed her by the time he gets his hand on my belly. He asks me, “Are you sure that’s her?” “Yes,” […]
Okay, so I’m totally bipolar or something. Yesterday I was wallowing in self-pity and otherness. Today…well, today is a different day. A better day. We had our anatomy scan today, at 18 weeks 5 days. I think they tried to squeeze us in early because, when we went for our 12 week scan, we told […]
Something Out of Nothing 