It still takes me by surprise. Every time. Infertility pops up in movies, TV, or books, and I feel my breath catch. Are they going to make light of “shooting blanks” or give some vague explanation as to why “you’ll never be able to have kids,” only to wind up with a surprise pregnancy by […]
You guys. Seriously. You’re the best. I can’t thank all of you enough for talking me down from what would have otherwise been an epic fuh-reak out. The logical part of my brain knew not to do that, but I really needed each of your voices to reassure me that this will probably turn out […]
Yes, this is a post about poop. Well, partly. I’ve never been exactly “regular.” I’ll go days without pooping even without injecting myself full of hormones. Constipation and I are not exactly friends, but we’re well acquainted. The past week has been above and beyond my normal discomfort. After days and days of struggling (thanks […]
Thank you all again for the hopeful comments and all the positive vibes headed my way! It’s day 2 of bed rest, and so far, I’ve been doing a much better job of keeping a positive outlook on this not-yet-doomed cycle. Hubby’s been doing his best to keep me distracted. We’re now halfway through The […]
Saturday 6:39 pm I haven’t brushed my teeth today. I’m still in my pajamas. I refuse to leave the house. I haven’t felt this way since my mom died. The same raw, always-on-the-verge-of-tears feeling that set in immediately after hearing the news, even though I was half-expecting it, and didn’t leave for days. In the […]
It’s Thursday, although it’s felt like a Saturday all day, and I’ve been doing my best to occupy myself while trying to remain in a (mostly) horizontal position. Here’s a little catch-up: ∞ There’s no such thing as TMI on in infertility blog, right? Good, because I finally pooped today! And without all of your […]
I’m still exhausted. I still feel like I’m getting sick. I did nothing all weekend, actually felt fine yesterday, and today I’ve been sneezing, my throat hurts, and I feel generally bleh. But mentally? Much better. I think Cristy had a point about the hormone crash (see comments). At least, that’s what I’m telling myself […]
Yesterday was Christmas. Hubby gave me a book (Bossypants, by Tina Fey–unwrapped). (I guess we both broke the no-presents rule.) He said the duck was “amazing.” Still, it didn’t feel like a holiday. All the skyping with my family had been done the night before. I played Christmas music, but still couldn’t quite get into […]
My project isn’t finished. I’ll give it to Hubby anyway, with the stipulation that he give it back to me immediately and let me continue to work on it. Between the weather and gloppy spray paint, it’s taking much longer than I had anticipated. But my $8 thrift store find will be beautiful–soon. The duck […]
Two things: Turns out, my biggest fear regarding international adoption (namely, that a child will be “placed for adoption” without his/her parents’ consent) isn’t just a problem in parts of the world where running water, electricity, and knowing where your next meal is going to come from are luxuries. I saw this tonight, and I’m […]
Something Out of Nothing 