And then there were…

Three! Holy cow, you guys.  I can’t believe we have three blasts in the freezer. After all my negativity, I was hoping for one, maybe two.  But obviously the mantra you all kept repeating to me–Quality, not quantity–was really true in this case.  So thank you for that. Hubby made the call, and he said […]

Happy Thoughts Thursday: Better at Sad

Being happy doesn’t seem to come naturally to me.  I have to work a lot harder to maintain a positive attitude.  The exact opposite of my husband.  Dr. N actually asked me today if I was upset that Hubby didn’t seem to share my grief.  Uh, no.  He’s allowed to grieve in his own way. […]

Mourning & Moping

Saturday 6:39 pm I haven’t brushed my teeth today.  I’m still in my pajamas.  I refuse to leave the house. I haven’t felt this way since my mom died.  The same raw, always-on-the-verge-of-tears feeling that set in immediately after hearing the news, even though I was half-expecting it, and didn’t leave for days. In the […]

Calm Before the…Something

I wouldn’t call it a storm, exactly, but something is brewing.  Since the end of last week, when I cried, freaked out, vented, and was given some amazing advice from all of you, I’ve been feeling better.  More hopeful.  And even a little bit excited.  Our big day is almost here! And I want to […]