I’ve had some really good days in the past couple of weeks. Hubby has even commented that it’s so nice to see me happy and smiling again. But I smiled with a secret twinkle in my eye. Because the reason I was feeling so happy was that I had a plan. A way to get […]
There’s a reason I refer to my good friend as “Sincerity” on this blog. When our IVF/FET cycle failed, I emailed her to let her know I wouldn’t be attending our writing group for a while, as I wasn’t feeling uber creative at the moment. She emailed me back that she understood how it might […]
I had to take Cat to the vet the other day. Poor thing had an ingrown claw. It didn’t seem to bother her, which is perhaps why it took so long for me to realize it was a problem. Both my cats have been healthy, so they haven’t spent much time at the vet’s office. […]
This weekend wasn’t all wallowing and reliving the loss of my mother (although there was enough of that). There were some moments that were good, that made me smile, and occasionally even laugh. All of your kind words and virtual hugs helped me make it through a difficult day. I don’t know that words exist […]
Three years ago today, Zappa called to tell me Mom was dead. Three years. And we’re still no closer to having the baby she always wanted for us. Her death and our infertility are forever intertwined, each influencing my feelings about the other. Besides missing my mom, this day is just another reminder of time […]
That pretty much sum it up. On surviving the grief after our failed FET: And my relationship with my husband (read: sex life) since then: Because, somehow, Pink gets it.
The last week has been hard. I’ve been pretty down in the dumps since my last therapy session, and today’s wasn’t any better. I was angry about my conversation with D, and I’m already anticipating the anniversary of my mother’s death this weekend. (I’ll write more about that later.) My head still hurts from crying. […]
I started writing this post on 2/2/13, hence the title. Trisha’s post yesterday came at the exact time I needed it, along with the comments that followed. I received a letter from an old friend yesterday. It was not what I wanted. It came just as I was beginning to let go of what has […]
Being happy doesn’t seem to come naturally to me. I have to work a lot harder to maintain a positive attitude. The exact opposite of my husband. Dr. N actually asked me today if I was upset that Hubby didn’t seem to share my grief. Uh, no. He’s allowed to grieve in his own way. […]
I hate April Fool’s Day. Hate it. I’m not tricky or clever, and I don’t like it when other people try to be. Don’t get me wrong–it was hilarious when my mom fed my brother chocolate-covered-cubes-of-wax. But any scenario involving me as the butt of the joke? No, thanks. I managed to muddle through yesterday […]
Something Out of Nothing 